Honest

It seems like each day of sleep has allowed me to think through things much more clearly and logically. I tend to make decisions based on emotions, which is usually not the best idea. So at this point... we're going to stick to the original one foster child at a time plan. I think this will be better all around. So we'll see what happens with the fostering over the next few weeks.

We've been determined to get pregnant for the past 17 months, but this week we've been given a reason to be ever more determined. Our best friends, Bryan and Stephanie are pregnant! Honestly, I never thought they'd get pregnant before us. When they talked about kids, it was usually a couple years down the road. But I couldn't be more happy for them. In fact, Stephanie was actually pregnant while we were in Chicago (of course no one knew it.) I know Stephanie and Bryan are going to make really great parents. And I'm so glad that God has blessed them with such a wonderful gift. (Now I'm going to get real honest...) Of course I am insanely jealous. Not that I don't want them to be pregnant, but I, too, want to be pregnant. And there were plenty of tears after I hung up the phone with Stephanie. Unless you've been through this... its hard to really understand the crazy roller coaster of emotions. But now I just think how incredible it would be to be pregnant with Stephanie and be able to raise our babies together. So we are really praying for a our miracle to happen soon. But in the meantime... I just love hearing Stephanie talk about being pregnant. And as I said... I truly couldn't be more happy for them.

I went for the blood tests this week, and I have an ultrasound on Wed to take a inside look at everything. Then I'll see the doctor again in a couple weeks and likely begin the first round of treatment.

Oh and we got the keys to our new place today! Yay! There's a lot to be done this coming week, but we're every excited to get in to our new place. Our first look at the place was wonderful, but once we got in there today, we realized it needed major deep cleaning. We ended up spending most of the afternoon and evening with Qtips and toothbrushes to really get in there. I even tackled the mold that had built up around the windows. Yuck! We still have a few cleaning tasks to complete, but we'll be ready to start moving stuff in tomorrow afternoon. We'll take some pictures tomorrow as well.