Caution: Too Much Info

Ok. I am doing much better today. Yesterday was not a good day. But we are still moving in the right direction. The Metformin should help with a couple issues like weight and also help with ovulation. There are many PCOS women who were able to conceive through Metformin therapy alone. Metformin does have some pleasant (sarcasm) side effects though. Two of which I have experienced in the past hour. I'll spare you the details. But because of its many side effects Dr Powell instructed me to take 500mg for 7 days, 1000 mg for 14 days, then 1500 mg from then on. So hopefully I'll ease my system in to it. We'll also be doing a hysterosalpingogram in early June. That is where Dr. Powell will inject dye via a catheter into my uterus. It will then be pushed through the fallopian tubes. While this is happening there will be live feed via Xray. What we want to see is the dye spilling out into my stomach cavity. If we do not see that... then there is a blockage. And of course if that happens there will be further steps taken. Sometimes the hysterosalpingogram itself can do the trick by forcing through any minor blockages that may be present. From my brief research it sounds as if a blocked fallopian tube doesn't mean the end of the journey. I just dread this procedure. And Nathan will have to drive me (and be there so I can squeeze the life out of his hand) and then Dr Powell said I'd have to rest the remainder of the day.

So all in all, it wasn't an awful appointment. My frustration was simply that it seems like we could have been doing this already. I went into my appointment hopeful and ready to start on Clomid... and instead was given another delay... plus the fear of blocked tubes. Its still difficult to really explain. I find trying to explain intense emotion to be pointless. But today I am doing well and still trying to remain hopeful. And I know many of you are praying for us and have been for a while. And your prayers and thoughtful words have really make it to this point and have encouraged me to keeping pushing onward.

And as a final thought... its easy for me to be open when I'm typing. Sometimes I feel like I am too open. But I think its better to be open and sharing then to hide it. I think we can draw strength from each other and learn from each other and encourage each other when we are open and will to say what hurts us. So that is why I continue to be open.